Jaanki's POV

It's been a week since I last talked to Raghav, the most comforting talk we had and not to forget the kiss we shared. My first kiss. Even though it's been a week, the effect is still as strong as that moment. The sparks continued to flow in my body the second I pressed my tongue against my lips.

My body ached for his touch, the way he pressed me against him to protect me from the cold. The way his soft lips moulded against mine. I shook my head as I realised that I had stopped my sword practice due to his thoughts.

It's been 7 days since he touched me. Or should I say it's been 7 days since I'm ignoring him.

The next day he came to meet me in the garden but I was busy with Shravani and Guddu. I emotionally blackmailed Shravani to spend time with me and it worked for 5 days continuously. She stayed with me in my room and it helped me in ignoring Raghav.

In her presence he didn't dare to come close to me. He tried but I would call her name and he'd stop. When she was gone I spent time with Baba or helping Ramu kaka to stay away from him.

I kept telling myself that I'm not attracted to him, that I don't feel for him. I thought if I stayed away the needy feeling would get less but it was going the opposite. The craving for him increased, the moment he came in front of me my body started aching for his touch. Those glare made me squirm in my place.

By now I was sure that the moment he gets his hand on me, it'll be the death of me. I'll die from embarrassment.

I moved my sword and took turns, it was a wooden sword so the moves weren't that sharp. I missed practising with a real sword. In our Gurukul we used to fight with real swords and I got used to it, now this sword feels light in my hand. But Baba restricted me from using them, he thinks they aren't safe for me. Like I'm a kid.

Right now I missed the school days, at least I had my sword fighting partner.

Lost in my thought I didn't even notice that someone had entered my room until a shadow passed through me. I turned around and swiftly placed the tip of the sword beneath his chin but it failed to remove the smirk from his face.

" So, instead of words we're gonna talk with swords," he took a step away and grabbed a sword that was laying on the table.

As the fight started he refused to do any attack on me and kept defending whenever I threw my moves at him. No matter how much I tried to provoke him he kept a straight face and took all my attacks.

" I'm not interested in fighting with you," I said, though my actions were contrary to those words. Because the fight was giving me a different kind of thrill.

" Will you stop ignoring me if I win?" He asked while again blocking my sword and attacking for the first time.

I stumbled back a few steps but straightened my spine and again took my stance. All the warmth was gone from his eyes and only the blazing fire was present, the one that could burn me into ashes. My palm started sweating and the sword was slipping from my hand.

" I'm not ignoring you," my voice came out low and unsure. I hated that I gave him this power over my body. He wasn't even touching me and I was already falling apart.

" Let me remind you, Princess. You're not the best liar," again he made a strong attack, making me step back.

He was furious, it didn't look like he was using much of his strength, still I didn't hold any chance against him. Either he was too good at this or maybe I lost the practice. Or maybe I was too distracted by the look of his lips.

" You're getting delusional," I muttered while using all my strength to attack him but he effortlessly blocked it and pushed me lightly.

" Really?" He pushed his sword against mine. He took steps closer to me and I couldn't stop my legs from stepping back. " So, it has nothing to do with the kiss?"

I yelped as my back came in contact with the wall and the only thing separating us was a sword that pushed against my chest. He didn't stop, our swords were the only thing distancing us right now.

"Kiss?" I let out a chuckle which felt fake to my own ears. " You're still stuck on that kiss. That kiss just happened in the heat of the moment, don't take it seriously. That kiss changes nothing between us. I don't care–"

A shrink left my lips as he pressed the sword against my neck, as I gulped it sank deeper into my neck. His face held a monstrous expression, if looks could kill I would be 6 feet under the ground.

" So, you mean to say. . . " He pressed his mouth against my ear as he spoke harshly. " That kiss which didn't let me sleep properly for a week, that raised all the hair on my body, the one that made me forget about everything, that kiss means nothing to you. "

My head went deeper into the wall as he sucked my earlobe and gave it a gentle bite, I sighed in relief as I realised that I wasn't the only one who was affected by the kiss. He was also suffering like me.

His lips came closer to mine and I instantly turned it in the opposite direction, he grunted in disapproval and threw both the swords at the other end of the room.

" Raghav!" I yelled as he pulled me closer by the waist. " Raghav stop! This is wrong, we shouldn't be doing this. "

" You think this is wrong?" he whispered against my neck, instead of pulling away from him my fist tightened around his collar. " Just wait till you get to know about the things I want to do with you. "

His words scared the heck out of me. I wasn't scared of him or his actions. I was scared because I knew I wouldn't be able to stop myself from giving in. And more scared about the consequences that both of us will have to face. If we continue our actions then it'll be messy and dangerous for both of us. Our ends can never meet.

He must have sensed my discomfort as he immediately pulled away and pulled my face with both his hands.

" Jaan, take deep breaths," his voice took a 360° turn and became soft as butter. " I didn't mean to scare you, Princess. "

" I'm not scared of you," I whispered and felt him sighing in relief. " Raghav, I'm sorry for that kiss. I shouldn't have given you false hopes —"

He placed a his hand over my lips and tilted my chin to make me look into his eyes.

" Don't apologise. That kiss was not a mistake that you'll apologise for," he said firmly leaving no gap for argument. " Princess, tell me honestly what are you worried about? "

Finally I broke down. Accepting reality was always the harshest thing for me. My reality with Raghav was not the fairytale I was expecting, it was a thriller that will harm many lives.

" I'm a Princess and you're a bodyguard," I sobbed and my bottom lip quivered as I spoke. " It'll never work out. "

He pressed his forehead against mine. " You're a princess and I'm a bodyguard and whose fault is that? Definitely not ours. It's something written in our destiny which we can't change. "

Placing a soft kiss on my forehead he pulled away. His thumb rubbed over my cheeks and I started calming down.

" I don't know what to do. "

Again he kissed my forehead then on my nose exactly on top of the nose ring, it seems like he has some kind of obsession with my nose ring. I had to buy a new one as my old one went missing after I woke up the other day.

" You're not a genius, Princess. It's fine not to know a few things. " He assured me. " We'll figure it out together. "

" What if I don't want this?"

Just like I imagined his body freezed at my words, his jaw clenched tightly and I could see the vein popping out of his neck. He looked scary, but surprisingly his touch was still soft. He was still rubbing small circles over the back of my neck.

" Then," he whispered the words out as if he had to force himself to say this. " Then we'll stop. We'll do whatever you want, Princess. You want a relationship , I'll give you that, you want nothing, I'll go away from your life. "

The coldness hit me as he took steps away from me. The thought of him leaving me made my heart fall into my stomach, my hands felt cold as I was no longer holding his shirt. Even though the sun was shining on the balcony, my entire room felt like it was filled with darkness.

" I know that you want me, princess," he finally said. " You're not gonna admit it but I know you do. It's your title and duty that's stopping you and I respect that. I'll never ever force you to choose me. "

My eyes teared up at his words, if he would have forced me even a little I would have given in and fell into his feet. It was an embarassing truth which I didn't want to accept. That I was turning weak for this man. I had lost my self control along with one of my organs to him.

But unfortunately my brain was still intact and it was stopping me from making any rash decisions. That was the only thing stopping me from falling into his arms.

I want to experience that touch again. He was so close to me, still really far. It felt like we were distanced by miles. Just one word from him and I would melt down, but Raghav being Raghav wanted me to choose him over everything.

" There is one more thing you should know, Princess. " My ears perked up at his words. " I might not be your choice but you'll always be my priority. I'll always choose you over everything. "

His voice broke and he gulped hard before giving a final kiss on my forehead. Along with the kiss I felt wetness over my forehead but before I could come into my senses he was already out of the door.

Falling on my knees I broke down into tears. I wanted to choose him. I wanted to make him my priority. I wanted him.

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"JJ!!" I jumped back at the harsh slap on my arm. And glared at my best friend who was looking at me with a weird expression. " What are you thinking of?"

I shook my head," It's nothing. "

My mind was filled with thoughts of only one person. His face, his words, his lips and damn those stormy eyes. No matter how much I tried to distract myself, nothing was working.

" It's not nothing, Jaanki," she said in no nonsense tone and took both my hands in hers. " Tell me what's wrong, JJ. Or do you not trust me?"

I sighed in defeat. Of course, I trust her. After my Baba she's the person I trust the most. But I didn't trust myself because if I started talking about it, I'd end up breaking down in front of her.

" JJ, tell me what is it? What's bothering you so much?"

Biting my lips I stared at her then again looked away.

" Promise you won't freak out," I raised my hand.

She caught it and squeezed," I promise. "

Taking deep breaths I opened my mouth and blurted out," I kissed Raghav. "

The only response I got was a blink, she blinked her eyes at me. I waved my hand in front of her to get some reaction but in return her brows creased together. She opened her mouth then closed again and pointed her finger at me.

" Raghav? Your bodyguard? You kissed him?"

I gave a short nod and she got up from the bed.

" Oh. My. God. Oh my god! Oh my god! Oh my god!" She started screaming at the top of her lungs.

I followed her immediately, the way she was shouting Raghav would have definitely heard her voice. I just hope he doesn't barge in.

She started jumping all over the room, even guddu was looking at her with strange expressions.

" YOU KISSED—" I placed my hand over her mouth and stopped her words.

" SS, stop it!" I hissed in her ear. " He's outside. He'll hear us. "

" Oh my god!" Her muffled scream reached my ear. I groaned in regret, I knew this was coming. This girl really can't control her emotions, especially happiness. Now, keeping her mouth will be another big task.

" If you don't shut up, I'll tell Baba about you and Abhinav," I threatened her as it was the only option left for me.

She raised her hand in defeat and motioned me to remove my hand. " Do. Not. Shout. " I warned before

removing my hand.

" You kissed your bodyguard," she whisper-yelled with a big smile plastered over her face. She grabbed my hands and started spinning me. " My JJ kissed her bodyguard. My princess kissed her bodyguard. This is insane. "

My head started spinning from the circle we did, finally she sat on the bed and I followed her while clutching my head. As soon as I sat she again got up, making me glare.

" This is like a dream," she smiled, showing all her teeth. " Fuck! Princess and her bodyguard, that's my favourite trope. "

Oh god, not again. I can't handle her book talks right now especially when I don't understand half of what she's saying.

" I mean, Raghav doesn't give Mr. Larson's vibes but he's still really hot. And you my darling, you're a pretty princess. Does he have tattoos?" I shook my head in reply and she hissed in disappointment. " He is a bodyguard, that should be enough. Has he used terms like ' Crawl to me, Princess'. Has he?"

My mouth went agape at her words and I slapped her arm," We're not at that stage yet. So, stop your wild dreams. It's just a kiss, nothing else. We're gonna pretend that it never happened."

" What?! No!!! You can't do that! " She shouted again. " Finally my favourite book is turning into reality, you guys can't ruin it. "

I rolled my eyes. " Shravani, can you please stop this? I'm in no mood to talk about things I don't understand at all. "

" I'm telling you, JJ. Please read this book once you'll definitely find a solution to your bodyguard problem. "

" There is no Bodyguard problem!! There is nothing to begin with. It was just a kiss. Why don't you understand that?! Why are you making such a big issue out of it?!' I bursted out.

My whole body shook as I spoke those words and my heart started hurting more as it reached my ear. I said those words to convince myself that it meant nothing but I failed miserably. No matter how many times I kept telling this to myself it didn't work. My heart has made its decision, it's not in my favour.

" Shh, it's fine. Calm down. " She hugged me and rubbed my back. " I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for not behaving. JJ, I can't see you like this. "

Silent sobs left my mouth and in no time Guddu was near my feet. My eyes teared more as I stared at my baby, I don't want him to witness me like this.

" Let's watch a movie , okay?"

I sniffed and rubbed my eyes before taking Guddu in my arms while Shravani switched the TV and put on some movie. All three of us got inside the sheets and enjoyed the movie but my heartbeat increased at one thought.

What if Raghav had heard my shouts?

In the middle of the night I woke up as my throat started aching. Looking at the table I noticed that I forgot to bring my bottle, after trying to sleep for a minute I finally sigh. I guess I'll have to go to the kitchen for water now as I am unable to sleep.

Without disturbing the two sleeping beauties I sneaked out from the covers and tip-toed out. Pulling my hair into a bun I walked towards the kitchen, my brows knitted together as I saw that the kitchen lights were still on.

I stopped on my steps as I saw someone standing there, even from miles away I could identify those strong muscles. My throat as I watched those defined muscles as he did his work, the first thought that came into my mind was to run away. As I moved to turn back a thought stopped me.

No, I can't start ignoring him again. Ignoring him will only make the situation worse. Gathering the courage I took steps towards him, the floor beneath my bare feet got colder than earlier.

His movements stopped as he must have noticed my presence. With a swift action he turned towards me in an attack mood with both his weapon in his hand.

I bit my lip to control the laugh that was threatening to come out. From his weapon my eyes moved towards his face and I exploded. There was a knife, rolling pin and many other things in the kitchen that could be used as weapons but my smart bodyguard didn't use any of those.

Instead he used the thing that was already in his hand.

" Oh my god!!" I couldn't control my laugh anymore. " I can't believe this. "

Tears pricked my eyes as I watched him again. There he stood, my bodyguard, with his powerful weapon, two roti rolls. In one hand was a roll made of roti and jam while in the other was a half-eaten roll and the other half was in his mouth which made his cheeks puff out.

And for the first time he looked more adorable than Guddu. The strong urge to kiss those cheeks made my heart hurt.

He swallowed hard and turned away from me. No nod, no greeting, not even a single smile. I guess I messed up pretty bad.

Taking slow steps towards the fridge I took out the bottle and waited for him to complete his work. I waited for him to talk to me or at least give me a signal at least.

But why am I waiting for his signal?

I'm Princess. I'll make the first move.

"Why are you eating this late?" I asked.

He shrugged in reply," I was hungry. "

" Didn't you have your dinner?"

His silence gave me the answer. Placing the bottle aside I moved towards him and grabbed him by the shoulder.

" Why did you not eat your dinner?" Again he moved away and ignored me. " Raghav, why are you not answering me?"

As he was done cleaning the plate he placed them aside and wiped his hands. He behaved like I wasn't even standing there and started to walk away. I clutched his arm and pulled him back more like I tried to pull him back but he didn't even move an inch.

" Are you upset with me?" I said trying my best to sound sad, in the back of my mind his cute photo was playing again and again.

His eyes met mine and I flinched at the glare, my hand loosened from his arm and I took a step back. Maybe I should give him some time. But he seemed to have other plans. Before I could take another step he grabbed my waist and pushed straight to the counter.

" Yes, I'm upset. Very upset," he gritted his teeth. " Are you going to do anything to make me feel better?"

" I'm sorry," I gulped as he leaned closer to my face.

Goosebumps appeared on my body as he rubbed his nose on my cheek. His hand which was surrounding my waist started moving inside my shirt. The only thing I could do was place my hand on the entire side of the counter.

He must have heard me shouting at Shravani. Damn, he believed those words. I really wanted to punch myself for losing control.

" I said those things because Shravani was irritating me and . . . " I took a sharp breath as he sucked on my jaw. " The kiss was not nothing to me. And you're important to me. "

He placed his hand on my back and lifted me, as I sat on the counter he parted my legs and stood between them. I gulped as his eyes went a few shades darker. My eyes involuntarily closed as he leaned against me.

" I'm upset because. . . " Again he placed a small kiss on my neck. " You watched DDLJ without me. "

My eyes rolled back as he nipped on the sensitive part and then gave it a gentle lick. When his hand rubbed on my back I again realised that I wasn't wearing a bra.

Fuck me.

But wait. . . What did he just say?

" You're upset because I watched DDLJ. Without you? " I confirmed again to know if I heard right. He gave me a short nod.

" You told me it was your favourite movie, I was waiting for you to invite me. But you didn't. "

"Raghav, you stupid—" my shout got muffled by him.

I tried to push him away but his hold tightened around me, he refused to leave me even an inch. It was embarrassing how my thin t-shirt was the only thing separating our upper body. After a few weak attempts I gave in and started moving my lips.

My nipples hardened as he rubbed his tongue over my bottom lip. His hand which was under my shirt started moving higher. My head fell back as he started placing wet kisses over my jaw, I dug my nails into his shoulder while he sucked harshly on my neck.

" What are you doing?" I whispered as he kept kissing at the same place.

He pulled at stared straight into my eyes. My breath was hitched as I captured the god in front of me, his hair were messed up, those grey eyes were darkened by many shades, his lips, those damn lips. . . I can never get enough of them.

He stumbled a little as I attacked him with my lips. I kissed him until I couldn't taste the jam and all I could feel was him. His fingers massaged my hair and a deep moan left my throat, I couldn't even recognise my own voice.

The touch of his finger tightened over my waist, it felt like my entire body was burning but surprisingly I liked it. I wanted to burn. The burning increased as he rubbed his thumb over my underboob, the touch was small, feather-like. My legs closed tightly as the wetness damped my panties.

" You're already wet for me, Princess," he smirked against my ear.

" Are you gonna do something about it?" I challenged his gaze and wrapped my arms around his neck.

He cupped my face and placed a soft kiss on the corner of my lips. " Trust me, Jaan. I can do a lot of things but I don't think you'll appreciate it right now. "

" You don't know me," I argued and whispered against his lips. " What if I'll appreciate it?"

The breaking of the glass deafened my ear and I pushed him with all my strength. My hands covered my mouth as I watched the scene in front of me. Shravani stood there with both eyes and mouth wide open, if I wasn't so shocked I would have laughed at her face.

He was lying on the floor with arms wide open. After hearing our laughter he got up on his elbow and narrowed his eyes at me. In return I gave him an apologetic smile. In defence I didn't know that I could push him with a single throw or maybe he was in shock too.

Getting off the counter I moved towards my best friend and grabbed her arm.

" Not. A. Word. Shravani," I said before she could start with all her questions.